The Beginning

Even after one month, I still can't find the right word to actually begin this whole thing about life-changing decision that I took after mustering enough courage to actually implement this crazy thing in my head that had stuck in the middle of my diencephalon since 2 years ago.

A.R.C.H.I.T.E.C.T.U.R.E

I decided to change my course to Architecture and Environmental Design. There, I said it!

After trying my hardest while pursuing medicine for the past 6 years - 2 years in secondary school, 2 years doing foundation, and 2 years in degree, I finally made my mind - even though it's kinda crazy to stop midway through the degree but I just can't help it as the main reason I stay in IIUM Kuantan Campus has already gone... Just like that...

Thus, here I am, standing alone in the middle of nowhere, trying my best while gathering enough courage to go through this life with new determinations, new plans, new directions, new environments, and definitely a new blog!

Light Up My Soul

The reason why I chose this as my blog title simply because I don't want to be the person who I turned into 6 years ago... I always think that I have nowhere to go, no one to turn to, and no reason to live my life the way I supposed to...

But now, I finally find the one and only thing I want to do for the rest of my life... Though the road in front of me will be hard and it'll definitely full with uncertainties but all I want to do is trying my best not to give up and keep going on and on... Until one day I finally satisfy with the things in front of me, then I'll think of something new...

Therefore, I hope I can find the true meaning of life and pursue my dreams not only for the sake of myself, but also for those who care for me especially my family and friends...

Let's just go with everything we have and see the outcome, shall we?

This Isn't Goodbye...

Well, though this is kinda surprising to some people but I finally have mustered enough courage to tell you guys what had happened to me recently...

Things happen for reason and I think I just have to live up with that...

A lot of things had happened since I've been admitted into IIUM Kuantan campus and to be honest, I've been trying so hard not to run away from Biomedical Science... Not only trying to cope with the course itself - everybody knows this isn't an easy course though it's not as tough as Medicine, I also had struggled to cope with the environment...

Therefore, long story short, I'm actually 'enjoying' a study leave right now, well.. Not a vacation obviously! I'm doing some preparation to go through the interview by the end of February or early March.. Oh, I didn't mention that I'm changing program, right?

Well, after all things considered, I applied the change of program to our own KAED in Gombak campus... so even after this leave, I won't be able to come back to Kuantan...

All in all, I would like to thank all the people that had helped me throughout my days in Kuantan especially to all Class of 2012, Batch 081/082 and 091... I sincerely want to thank you guys for giving me so many memories... I'm sorry I just can't go on with you guys anymore... It's not that I don't want to but I can't...

Therefore, I would like to wish all the best to all of you and hopefully we all going to succeed in no matter what we want to pursue in the future... I hope our paths will cross again in the future so we can meet again, talk over a cup of coffee somewhere, and laugh about all those happy moments we had together...

As I strongly believe that hard work will definitely be rewarded and together with sincerity, we could have all the things that we want to have in our life... be it a wealthy life, healthy environment, useful sources, or anything that can benefit us and people that we care about...

All in all, I hope this isn't goodbye...

Regards,

Nuraini Munira Jalir

First Post!

Hello, world! I'm Danielle Ivory and I'm from East part of Malaysia!

and this is my blog!

Light Up My Soul!

Thinking of...

Again.. I've been thinking about what I'm going to do...

should I give up?

should I just throw away everything?

should I wait? For what?

should I keep on struggling? Is it really worth my time?

Is there someone gonna help me while searching for the answer?

Ugh! If only I can go back in time... But even if I go back to any point of my life and re-do things I want to do... Will everything turns for the better? Or worst?

Maybe this is just a phase...

A Signal?

4 years ago, I've asked myself whether it's a wise decision to change to Biological Science...

2 years ago, I've asked myself whether it's a wise decision to change to Biomedical Science....

and today.... again I ask myself whether it's a wise decision to change my life direction...

I had a heart to heart talk with my housemate and we ended up with a lot of things that we never talk about before...

There's one thing that I take pride on that maybe isn't something right for me to keep on going with... and thus I think I want to stop here and make a change...

One may think that I'm happy to be here...

One may think I should be grateful to study in such a great university...

One may think that I should keep going on and try my best...

But... I think the signal has arrived for me to stop and leave... and surprisingly I'm not sad nor happy to leave... I'm kinda nervous actually...

as I leave this place, I'll go to somewhere new...

I've been thinking non-stop about this matter... Every now and then my head filled with thoughts of running away... But only a coward would do that... and I'm not a coward...

It may be hard later... But I'll try my best to survive...

I will survive... I promise...

I'll take this challenge... I'll not lose... not to myself...

I wonder if I'm gonna discover something else along this new path?