Pretending

Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay

But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...pretending 

How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
If we can choose the ones we love

But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong
Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...

Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no-one's letting go
And it's such a shame
Cos' if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be... (pretending) Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...pretending, pretending Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...pretending

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Above is the original song by Glee Cast. The thing about the song is that it leaves impression on me so deeply that I was stunned the first time I heard it on Glee. ... Cause the song totally tuned out all the stuffs going on for the past 7 years. I don't want to admit it but I guess I found the one song for you, E.


Happy birthday to me. 지난 7 년 도안 너를 사랑해서 비안해.

Another year has passed~

Since yesterday, I was thinking of something that I could do to mark this day.
Should I go out, buy some stuffs, watch movies, eating out (break fast), or should I just stay in the room, doing.... Nothing. Or, should i just go Y.O.L.O.? Well, that'll be something. LOL

Unlike the previous July 28s, this one was a bit emotional even for me.
I spent like an hour sitting at the gazebo outside my block at 3 in the morning... Thinking how my life went for the past 12 years... Why 12? Cause the memory before that was completely sealed somewhere in my brain and the key was lost somewhere in my heart...

Anyway, as I was saying... Sometimes, life can be cruel. But at the same time it can bring you indescribable happiness. Like, how speechless you are when you're been asked, "why did you like him?" haha. I hit a spot there, right?

Therefore, instead of wasting each day thinking of what you could do in the past to fix whatever in the past, stop and move on with your life. It's probably not just another chapter in your life but when you look at it, it is just another chapter of your life and with the power in none other than your hands, you could just close the book and buy another Moleskine notebook or maybe a fresh journal, that can help you open a new chapter in your life. Literally.

As Allah's the Almighty creation, there's so much we could do about our life.
If you have doubts, then maybe you should stop ignoring it and start finding the answer.

If you want to travel and see the world, maybe it's the right time to go for a retreat and along the way, who knows what you might unearth that been buried within you all this time.

If you don't like what're you doing, why are you still keep doing it? Find the courage and go do what you want! Do something that you're best at. That you're happy with. Feeling blessed with.

All I'm saying, life's too short for us to miss it. Well, I learned it the hard way though. Only after 7 years of chasing something that's almost meaningless, I found the one thing that I want to do for the rest of my life. That if you asked me during the previous twelve July 28s, I might not even know that I'm gonna choose this path. But that's life.

"Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans." John Lennon is so damn right.

So rise up, ask yourself what you wanna do and live your life the fullest.

Peace out!


P.S. Happy birthday to all Leo babies out there!

Not just another visit to the bookstore!

It's July and it's reading month! So I went to Kinokuniya to get some new books and they have this awesome offer until the end of this month which is new membership will get 2 voucher of 20% of 2 fixed price books! So, ta-da!

It's been a month since I got Nikki but I still don't really know how to get my hands around it. Hence, after doing some Googling, I decided to buy this.

...and I also bought this book to help me strengthen my basics in AutoCAD 2013. Though the ones we're using in the lab is AutoCAD 2009 but I'm gonna install the new one in mum's Sony Vaio, so let's just go with this one instead. ...and this comes with a free cute Dummies small notebook.

Yeah, I'll try to get my hands on the George Omura and Rick Graham books later. But for starter, let's go with this first.

As per usual, I always check out the new Luxe Paper journal and notebooks collection and... Ta-da!!! This is Lilly's new sister, Amanda.

My best friend dragged me to the cinema before I managed to get to the second floor where most of favourite genres are located. Well, I guess I'm gonna buy some more later in August by using the remaining voucher!

But for now, I'm okay with these. :) #content



Okay, it's time to hit the bed... Good night!

Of New Semester and New Room

.... before that, phew! First semester in architecture is indeed crazy and got me killed for a moment there but I made it. We all made it safely.

... and now, it's short semester! Which marks the end of my first year in Gombak and that means one thing.

Moving into a new room, in new block but unfortunately the same mahallah. My new room is now located at the very back of my mahallah, 3 blocks away from my old block and I had about 15 trips going back and forth from my old room. Hell, I have a lot of stuffs! .... and almost a quarter of them were gotten rid by me by the time I managed to rearrange my room back. Huh! 

One of the thing that I find unpleasant in my study plan is the subjects that I need to take during the short semesters. ALL short semesters. Say goodbye to the 3 months vacation for the next 3 academic years~

Anyway, as for this semester I only take one subject. Though I do have Tilawah to take but nah~ next semester maybe. I still haven't transferred all those Study Circles, Leadership, and Parenting into my new student Graduation Audit and definitely will do so in this upcoming semester. There's no way in hell I'm gonna go through all that again.

Yesterday, I went to watch Snow White and the Huntsman, starring Kristen Stewart and the hot bod Chris Hemsworth (The big bro to Liam Hemsworth, Miley Cyrus' fiance) with my best friend who is sadly going back to her country today. The movie was awesome. Well, I haven't been to movie with my friends for over a year so yeah. I can't really tell. but the movie is awesome, still.

As for today, I have major cleaning to do at my big bro's apartment. (I'm using his desktop right now). This keyboard is so damn awesome!

All right, that's all for now.

I guess I see you guys on my next entry.

P.S.: I'm going back to Sabah next week for Adam's cukur rambut kenduri so, yes. Finally after 5 months, I'm going home. That marks the longest period I stayed in Peninsular Malaysia without coming back home.

CAD is Awesome!

I gotta say, it's kinda difficult and definitely need a lot of practice but I think I'm just crazy about this software! Haha I know it's sounds weird and crazy but I don't care!

All we did today was working on basics stuffs using the toolbar but I rather use shortcuts instead of the toolbar. It helps me saving time while working on the first 10% assignment.

And right now, all I'm thinking is starting to work on my dream apartment floor plan. Hehe it's gonna be a lot of fun!

There are various areas of topics we the first year students are going to be assigned with. Basically we're gonna cover the whole Neufert's Architect Data book so I do actually need to start doing some reading.

The upcoming weekend is going to be Archidex'12. It's like one of the grandest event for those in architectural field. I was thinking of going but unfortunately I have to do some shots for my personal Urban Trail with my best friend who's going back to her country soon. Plus, I don't have anyone to go with as everybody is gonna be occupied with the PADI event in UPM Serdang.

I'm thinking of going to catch some movies tomorrow but still haven't decided on what movie yet. Oh, well.

That's all for now and I'll see you guys on my next entry.