Welcome to First Year Architecture.

It's really crazy. That's all I can say.

This is the first week and we're already briefed for the our very first project.

For the upcoming week, we're gonna have our KAED Taaruf. And we paid RM50 for it. I'm not sure whether it's gonna worth it or not.

One thing that highlighted my week is the fact that I found someone that I've been looking for for the past nearly 2 years.

A friend in KAED. Not merely someone that I can hang out with but someone that understand my situation and just let it pass and move on with me.

She's so cool and she's everything I'm looking for.
I pray to Allah we're gonna stay friends forever.

Anyway, I have a lot of things to do right now so I'm gonna go now. 

See you guys next entry.  

I'm Nervous!

For all I know, I'm feeling so nervous right now. Especially knowing that Assoc. Prof. Dr. Aziah is going to be my studio master. I intentionally registered under her section.

Today's plan was just hanging out and tidying up my room. That's all.

I also been thinking about moving out from this mahallah and probably move into Ameenah or Hafsa. Or maybe a mahallah nearby these two.

I don't know. Should I?

My Baby Nephew

Pretending

Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay

But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...pretending 

How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
If we can choose the ones we love

But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong
Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...

Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no-one's letting go
And it's such a shame
Cos' if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be... (pretending) Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...pretending, pretending Will we (oh oh oh all) ways (oh oh oh all)ways (oh oh oh all) ways be...pretending

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Above is the original song by Glee Cast. The thing about the song is that it leaves impression on me so deeply that I was stunned the first time I heard it on Glee. ... Cause the song totally tuned out all the stuffs going on for the past 7 years. I don't want to admit it but I guess I found the one song for you, E.


Happy birthday to me. 지난 7 년 도안 너를 사랑해서 비안해.

Another year has passed~

Since yesterday, I was thinking of something that I could do to mark this day.
Should I go out, buy some stuffs, watch movies, eating out (break fast), or should I just stay in the room, doing.... Nothing. Or, should i just go Y.O.L.O.? Well, that'll be something. LOL

Unlike the previous July 28s, this one was a bit emotional even for me.
I spent like an hour sitting at the gazebo outside my block at 3 in the morning... Thinking how my life went for the past 12 years... Why 12? Cause the memory before that was completely sealed somewhere in my brain and the key was lost somewhere in my heart...

Anyway, as I was saying... Sometimes, life can be cruel. But at the same time it can bring you indescribable happiness. Like, how speechless you are when you're been asked, "why did you like him?" haha. I hit a spot there, right?

Therefore, instead of wasting each day thinking of what you could do in the past to fix whatever in the past, stop and move on with your life. It's probably not just another chapter in your life but when you look at it, it is just another chapter of your life and with the power in none other than your hands, you could just close the book and buy another Moleskine notebook or maybe a fresh journal, that can help you open a new chapter in your life. Literally.

As Allah's the Almighty creation, there's so much we could do about our life.
If you have doubts, then maybe you should stop ignoring it and start finding the answer.

If you want to travel and see the world, maybe it's the right time to go for a retreat and along the way, who knows what you might unearth that been buried within you all this time.

If you don't like what're you doing, why are you still keep doing it? Find the courage and go do what you want! Do something that you're best at. That you're happy with. Feeling blessed with.

All I'm saying, life's too short for us to miss it. Well, I learned it the hard way though. Only after 7 years of chasing something that's almost meaningless, I found the one thing that I want to do for the rest of my life. That if you asked me during the previous twelve July 28s, I might not even know that I'm gonna choose this path. But that's life.

"Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans." John Lennon is so damn right.

So rise up, ask yourself what you wanna do and live your life the fullest.

Peace out!


P.S. Happy birthday to all Leo babies out there!